Sunday, August 10, 2014

The source and summit of our faith

It always fills me with great joy whenever I meet people who have converted to Catholicism. For me, such a decision does not come easily and requires a lot of faith, a lot of commitment, and a lot of courage. As a 'cradle Catholic', I don't think I would have the required amount of courage to make such a decision to turn my life around like this.

The most beautiful thing about converts, in my opinion, is the fact that they have made this decision on their own without any pressure from others or commitments they had to follow. Their Baptism and their Confirmation was a decision that they were drawn to because of their relationship with Jesus and their continuing desire for something more that this world cannot offer. I'm beginning to think that this personal relationship with Jesus is essential for Catholics. Sure, we can learn our theology, our catechesis, and the "what"s of our faith, but until we turn that "what" into a "Who", it isn't really something we will truly cherish.

Throughout my religion classes in high school, I will always remember one particular teacher that always told us cradle Catholics - "you have grown up in a faith given to you by your parents. But what will you do to make this your faith?" Until we answer this question, I don't think we can have the motivation to remain in the faith. The faith will simply be material, "what", learned in religion class and not a lifestyle, not a relationship with a person, a "Who", that makes it valuable and important to us.

I've heard many conversion stories from different people, and there are one of two things I notice that are almost always present in these stories that are told to me. The first: Truth. I think in a way, we all desire to know what's right, what's real, what's true. The Church is beautiful because it offers this Truth. There are no blurry edges and no shadows - to a person looking for Truth, the Catholic Church offers it with her open hands.

The second, perhaps the most important, and the single thing that made my parent's faith my faith, is the Eucharist. It is said that the Eucharist is the Source and the Summit of our faith, and that everything in the Faith points to the Eucharist and in turn branches out and is sent out, from it. I do not think it is a mistake that through Youth Ministry, I was drawn deeper and deeper into an appreciation of the Mass. Evidently, there are still days when I struggle to focus and struggle to appreciate it, but it is me striving to grow in a relationship with Jesus that causes me to continue to be attached to the faith and the Mass.

It is understandable that Mass would appear boring - especially if we do not see the Eucharist as it truly is - the Body of Christ. For me, it is shocking and humbling that Jesus would want to enter into our hearts in such a personal and intimate way - if we are willing to open the door and let Him in.

The past couple months I felt like I have made a lot of progress in turning this faith from something my parents gave me to a faith that is truly mine. Especially important to my growth at this time were two Sacraments: Reconciliation, and of course, the Eucharist. In one, I felt the deep and tender mercy and immense love of a merciful father and in the other, the almighty and powerful God of the universe and all creation enter my heart in the simple, humble form of the host.

There is something shocking and deeply paralyzing in the Eucharist and in Eucharistic Adoration. This past year, I feel a strange peace and satisfying joy in front of the Body of Christ that I have not felt before. It is a simple kind of joy and peace that I cannot and did not find anywhere else before - and it is an experience I know I will never feel anywhere else. Perhaps this is the kind of joy and peace Jesus offers and promises us so much when he tells us to not fear. The simple realization that Jesus is willing to come down into such a humble form in order to dwell with us and within us is mind-blowing and quite awesome. With Jesus with us all the time, truly we can ask ourselves, of whom or what should I fear?

Relationship is so important in the Catholic faith. It's getting ourselves to know not only the "what" - although that Truth is important too - but important to know the "Who" - Jesus Christ.

And that's why I love the Eucharist.